growing desire

To this day, I can't say when or where it started, but there was a desire/yearning planted in us that started to grow.  Not the kind of growth that is tame and manageable, but the kind that is semi-invasive, like the kind that has its own ideas about what areas are appropriate and/or sacred... oh yeah, and does not ask permission first! 
This inconvenient and, frankly, impolite growing desire/yearning started to wreak havoc on the relative comfort we enjoyed.  This desire and yearning for an authentic life lived before God introduced us to a new lifestyle that we are still learning/struggling to embrace: no compromise.
Our ideas of family size (what does God say about children?), possessions/wealth (what does Jesus say about money?), church (why do we do what we do?), the kingdom of God (what kingdom are we living in/for?)... the answers these and many other inconvenient but profoundly life altering questions have proceeded to transform us from being conformed to the world to being very different.  Yes, and to a lot of people, quite strange in fact. 
But we are beginning to feel like, life shouldn’t look “normal” in the normal sense of the word, in fact, there is something inherently “abnormal” about a life lived as a sacrifice.